I will have been Mike-free for an entire week as of tonight. It's been difficult, but it has been bearable. He was my best friend for 7.5 months though, so it's understandable why it's been so rough. I still wish I meant anything to him though... I know at one time, I did... But that time has long since passed...
I'm just grateful for good friends that are helping me through this. I can't wait for the hurt to heal.
Which, I know it's finally starting to heal, because I actually had fun at fhe last night. I had fun and enjoyed myself greatly.
The only problem I've been having is I've been getting really bad nightmares. Really, really, really terrifying nightmares. So bad that I physically will find myself shouting in order to wake myself up. And the weight that is on my chest, that always prevents me from doing so, gets heavier each time I have one of these nightmares.
They come every time I find myself more devoted to living the gospel and serving the Lord. Obviously, it's important that I stay committed to the gospel right now... Why else would I be having these dreams at the time I have them?
Whoever reads this... Please keep me in your prayers... The power of prayer is so amazing, and I know it will help me.
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