Hey Aunt Jess... What should I do?

So, I was supposed to go on a date last night with this guy I've had a crush on for a couple of weeks now. When he didn't show up to fhe, I sent him a message apologizing if I had offended him, and asking him why he wasn't at fhe, and asking if he had forgotten about our date, just out of curiosity.

"omg! I accidently forgot and went to my ward's fhe tonight. I really apologize. Sorry about that."

Alright, whatevs. I told him I was stuck at the church without a car... No response. Whatevs. I'm hurt, and I get a ride home with my friend, Sharise.

I sent him another message that evening telling him a simple no would have been easier to take over being stood up, and that I was really hurt. I also told him I wasn't upset, which is really the truth.

I was expecting to cry a ton last night. I didn't shed a tear. I was really surprised.

This morning brought his reply: "It was an honest mistake. I simply forgot. I would never want to hurt you. I am sorry."

Now I'm conflicted. I'm fairly certain that even though he hasn't said anything about it yet, he's going to try to make it up to me, if I haven't already dealt too harshly with him.

Do I let him? He's a very kind person, as far as I've been able to observe. I believe him, that he forgot. But it's obvious I'm not all that important to him, since he forgot about our date...

I'm very conflicted right now over this situation.

Maybe it was a good thing he wasn't there last night though. I was flirting with someone else for most of the evening (maybe to take my mind off the fact he didn't show, I don't really know). In fact, it got to the point where I was fairly certain the guy I was flirting with was about to ask me out. Instead, the question he asked me was, "Have you ever thought about going on a mission?"

That's also been on my mind recently. I want to go again. I really have the desire to go. But I don't know that I can overcome my health issues.

Then, I sit down at the computer and pull up new.familysearch.org and I spend a few minutes trying to make sure everyone I know of that's living is accounted for, before I start searching for my dead.

I think of my experience at the Temple today, and how I was the ONLY one who showed up to do baptisms this morning, and how the dear Sister told me how I made their day by simply being there.

I think of what it says in my Patriarchal Blessing about the work I need to accomplish in the Temple.

And then, a voice comes to comes to me quietly, and says that my mission is in the Temple. It is just as important as going out in the world to bring others to the gospel, because it is freeing the dead-those who cannot do their own work-from their dark prison.

I'm conflicted over a few things right now. But at least I know I'm on the right path. I just wish I knew what to do.