That moment, when you realize you like someone...

... but they like your best friend? Yeah, that sucks.

I went on two dates this past week, one with a guy I like, the other with someone I had never met before. The latter one flopped. The former one was decent, but I had to tell him off because things seemed awkward. No matter that I like him.

Whatevs though. I shouldn't get my hopes up with anyone here. I'm leaving soon. And however much I can see myself with someone here... I'm only half of what a relationship takes. And if the guys I'm interested in aren't interested in me, then who am I to hold onto nothing? No, I know I deserve someone who takes my breath away, and, likewise, I take his away. I deserve someone who treats me like a queen because he cares about me that much. And sometimes, I feel like both these guys treat me that way. And other times, it's obvious they don't care.

So I'm moving on. Wish me luck.