How is it ok?

I tell you I still have feelings for you. 
Your response? That you see honesty as a good thing, you don't hate me, and with how quickly you said it, there's no doubt in your mind that we're still friends.

That response leaves me believing the possibility of more.

I tell you a couple of days later that I miss you and I'm excited to see you.

You say that you aren't sure how to respond to that.

Fair enough. Then I apologize for being weak and attached to you, because I'm certain your life would go on fine without me.

You say it's ok, and there's no need to apologize.

How is it ok, unless you really think you need me, too? Unless you think you're at least beginning to be as attached to me as I am to you? How is it ok?

How is it ok when you know I love you, and you keep stringing me along under the guise that you're simply trying to understand your feelings for me?

That night, so long ago, when you told me that whenever you thought of "US" you would get a warm sensation at the base of your ribs... Remember that? Remember how I told you it was the Holy Ghost? It was more than that. That was the first time you felt the love of your Heavenly Father. That is what love feels like. "...God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God..." 1 John 4:16. And the fact that you felt it about "US," well... I guess I know your feelings better than you do. I'm just waiting for you to either accept them and change for yourself, or deny them and become a bitter person.

The truth is, it's not ok. Not right now. Not until you figure things out. So I guess I'm going to try once again to stay away from you so I can bury my feelings for you again. I know it's going to be difficult. But only when I can be indifferent towards you can we be "just friends."