I'm sorry I'm not good enough.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough to be around you when your friends of 14+ years and your family are around.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you to text when you're around said people.

I'm sorry I don't fit the norm of what you think people should think of me.

I'm sorry that you don't think I'm good enough.

I just wish that you wouldn't lead me to believe that there's a chance for "US" when it sometimes seems as if you never mean for anything to happen.

I don't understand why you'll text me all the time when you aren't around anyone else.

I feel like I'm the "you" in the song "Dirty Little Secret." You know, the one that goes "I'll keep you my dirty little secret."

I wish you would let me in. I know its difficult for you to let others in. It's really difficult for me to be on the outskirts of your life when all I want is to be in your life-to help you through your worst trials.

"I love the part in fairytales that's very near the end
When all the kingdom cheers for their new queen
And all is well, and all is good, and everyone belongs
And happily their ever aftering

But when I enter the kingdom of dreams
And face the promise of all I can be
Will they see me as a heroine?
Tell me, will they let me in?

I love the hour the seasons change and winter turns to spring
And empty branches welcome newborn leaves
The Earth makes room for every flower that reaches to the sun
"We're glad you've come," is whispered on the breeze.

But when I enter the spring of my dreams
Just like a wildflower that bursts on the scene
Will I find my place with a gentle wind?
Tell me will they let me in?

And if a heart's breaking a part of me's aching
To show them how much that I care
But if no one lets me or turns and forgets me then how?
How can I share?

There is a part in fairytales that's very near the end
The princess and the prince proclaim their love
And hearts are healed and souls are changed and two blend into one
All orchestrated by the stars above

But when I stand at the door of my dreams
And face a lonely heart calling for me
I could fill that emptiness within
If that heart would let me in
Won't someone let me in?"

I wish you would let me in so I can help you. But until you develop that trust, I can't do anything for you.

Maybe one day you'll see the truth in everything I've ever told you and you'll start trusting me enough to let me in... I hope you do...