Some thoughts that are pointless... like halo.

And, if you're reading this, we're probably facebook friends, and you get the joke I included in the title.

If not, you're just a bit of a creeper. But whatevs.

I've been trying to examine my feelings recently, to understand why I've been so down. And I think I've figured most of it out.

I understand now why my friends haven't been inviting me to hang out. It's because I've been so depressed. And I'm a horrible person to be around when I'm depressed.

So I'm shaking off all the offense I've been stupid enough to take, and waking up to the reality I learned in Texas, but forgot when I moved back here: I'm beautiful. I'm blessed. And I'm so happy because of that.

Bountiful am I, blissful am I, beautiful am I.

Try saying that to yourself three times in a row, three times a day.

I also haven't been writing in my journal like I should so I can look back on my days and see just how blessed I am.

Yeah, I'm struggling to find a job. So what? My wonderful parents are letting me live at home, and my sister is providing a small source of income for me until I can find a job.

How blessed am I for having that? Food, shelter, and enough income to pay my bills. I could be in a lot worse situations.

Someday, I'm going to be like my amazing Aunt Jess, who doesn't let anything stick and continuously rolls with the punches, no matter how hard the punch is or how many come at her.

While I know I'm not there yet, I know it takes practice.

So, go ahead. Insult me. Don't invite me to things.

I'll just roll with it.

But wait and see how much higher than you I'll rise if you demean me.

And if you're my friend through it all, I will do my best to help you rise higher than me.

I promise.

And my word is good.